doubtful

2006-04-30T16:00:00.000+08:00

and now that your taken

2006-04-29T21:50:00.000+08:00

yayy,thanks sweetheart=))

im like so screwed up lahhs! havent started studying for ss yet and its like coming soon and i can still happily go town and bbqed at cousin's apartment.shit mann.anyways gtg.bye.

2006-04-27T21:34:00.000+08:00

mye's like round the corner! have been practising maths every night and if i dont pass my maths i'll just cry mann.hahs.anyways have to study already!

there are many things which bother me,and i wish to tell someone about it but mye's are round the corner and everyone's busy studying so dont wanna add to their list of worries.uhhuhs.

i suppose that day will come

2006-04-22T15:45:00.000+08:00

that mesmerizing smile of yours just melts my heart
maybe your the only one who can cheer me up.

2006-04-22T15:37:00.000+08:00

all i have to say is,im very very sad.it was just a sec to an A and its like the first time i didnt get A for my 2.4 lahhs!and i have to thank lisa alot for being the one motivating me throughout the run.during the last round she sprinted,she turned back but i told her to go first.i tried to catch her but i just couldnt and at the very last point this girl took over me got damn scared but told myself to perservere till the end so i managed to overtake her and came in 13th but still,i didnt get an A:(
sighs its over,what else can i do?but just cant help thinking abt it though.but i know i did my best and what else could i ask for.

after 2.4 headed for j8 for macs breakfast saw quite alot of ppl there too.then walked arnd with marcella and headed home.was supposed to go studying with her after taking a nap at home but felt a little warm so didnt go in the end so sorry.maybe it was also cos i didnt have the mood.

2006-04-21T21:48:00.000+08:00

wednesday:five batteries and im damn irritated okie!that stupid cowboy teacher its like i got all As already lahhs then like its only that C in sit and reach that dashed my hopes of getting 6As!!then i went to beg that cowboy then she dont allow lahhs.irritating.then huiyan came down and said she begged chow so i went to beg her too but no use cos mine's like from a C to an A? hahhas.quite impossible.hehs.and i jumped like 181cm for standing broad jump?! omg mann!couldnt believe i did that! hahhas.great improvement!!jo's tugjump and angelia's advice helped!!hahas.yayy.but what's the whole point i mean like i got one C or not i could have gotten straight As!!ohh wells.

tmr's 2.4,meimei just got me very nervous!gosh.5As here i come!

sauyan had a great fall during pe while trying to jump hahhas.so funny alright we all just stood there and watched the whole process taking place in front of us without helping.hahhas damn funny.after school lunched with mon,duck and marcie then duck and mon left.meimei and me studied!and julia and loraine joined us too.

2006-04-16T15:42:00.000+08:00

went for hollaback crew yesterday!omg mann.it was a blast.B2D came in third!hahhas.was damn high lahhs was still singing and laughing because of someone's funny way of cherring with marcella at the bus stop hahahs.got pissed cos the bus didnt stop cos it was too packed.so decided to cab to ps,apparently there were this two girls who came later than us and were standing in front of us trying to hail a cab too then finally there was a cab,they flagged for it.and for once marcella and i felt like bimbos cos we were like wth! we came first and stuff hahhas and we were like shouting across lahhs then they gave us the cab.then i felt bad but i was very hungry and we're in the right.hahhas.then dinnered at some place and waited for eilis to come meet us and we walked down to heeren and cine.eilis had a dinner,and i left cos had to go fetch cousin-in-law from the airport at 11pm but apparently he only came out like at 12.30?! so i reached home and 1am bathed and all and i guess i was too tired that i couldnt get to sleep.hahhas.

today,had trng in the morning back at kason,we saw ally!!like omg lahhs its been a long time.hehs.and i was like damn active during trng today i wonder why.hahhas was kinda pressurized cos jiaolian put me to play with gordon,the best player?!and hes like only sec 1.hahahas but it was alright.after trng lunched with airen and decided to head for town so we took bus 7 from bedok interchange and shopped arnd at town then trained home.

i've got tons of homework yet to complete!gtg.bye!

2006-04-09T17:55:00.000+08:00

towned yesterday with airen at first then met others.hehs hehs.waited for eilis and marcieyong for 30-45 mins okie at ps,then had lunch with eilis at long john then headed for town when marcieyong went to meet duck.we met again at the street basketball thing held outside ngee ann together with linsin and co.ohhs and linsin is one shuai ge.shes damn shuai okie.hahhas.and im a meinu okie!dont insult me=(ohhs saw adriano and took a picture with him.yayy.not really a super fan of his but just wanted to take with him hahhas.didnt believe huiyan that it was him initially not until i ran in front to see hahhas.and apparently i told eilis i wanted to take picture with him so she went to ask then he act like he didnt hear anything lahhs!then eilis cannot tahan then she went to poke his back and asked,"excuse me,my friend wants to take a picture with you."hahahas damn paiseh lahhs then we just stopped in the crowd and took picture then alot of ppl were looking.gosh.and there was a time when eilis and i couldnt decide where to go as she wanted to go somewhere else and i wanted to go elsewhere and we were talking distance away talking using mouth and sign language hahhas.and apparently the cafe was playing you're beautiful and its the part that says"i saw your face in a crowded place and i dont know wad to do."damn funny lahhs cos it was the scenario eilis and i were having.hehs.after that met cousin at shaw for dinner at crystal jade then walked back to cousin's apartment and slept over.hehs.

am rushing through homeworks now!tons of them.

2006-04-06T20:53:00.000+08:00

stayedover at meimei's place(marcie's) last night.laughed alot like nobody's business okie.hahhas.

woke up for swim meet and headed for the swimming complex in marcie yong's dad's car.was kinda lost there cos julia and linsin were gonna be late and i dont know where to go cos im no longer an official!hahhas not until i saw sauyan.hehs.after swim-meet,met clique and had lunch at toapayoh macs and headed for town then farrer park for bowling.hahhs.it was fun we had a competition against the other team.and we're the i-bowlers and it consisted for linsin,huiyan,phyllis and me!hahhas.we're the great mann.we won two games and lost one game to the rest.hahhas.ohh wells,it was alright cos we had lots of fun.we hi5ed after each strike or spare!hahhas.felt like an idiot doing that but it was fun=)).compassed and homed.on the bus,i was so tired that i fell asleep on cherry's shoulder then i woke up when it was near my stop,then i waited and i fell asleep again when i was resting my head on my hand and i almost missed my stop!hahhas cherry was anxious so she hurry pressed the bell for me and i woke up.hahs.wth right.

btw,happy ahgong/ahma,batman/catwoman day!!
someone happily forgot and still accused me of forgetting.how cool's that right.hahahas.
once again,happy six months and lovelove=)

2006-04-06T00:04:00.000+08:00

hellos.havent been blogging.
sentosa-ed for both days during the weekend.sat with clique and sunday went to cousin's hotel on sunday.was really burnt alright.and the pool at the hotel was damn deep lahhs!its like 2.5metres deep,sis didnt dare to swim hahahs how timid right.ohh wells.felt damn sick.had diahhroea on monday lahhs no wonder felt so nauseous and having a great tummyache.yeapps thats abt it.byebye.

MARCELLA: hello choi! youre laughing like nobody's business now lah! &you just called Lisa "Sau" like wth!?!? hahah. you must be having so much fun lo. playing SNAP JACK huh! tsktsk. oh yah, we watched Nanny McPhEE but stopped half-way cos it was too boring? whats more, the VCDs are pirated. cool right. &choi, maybe you can stop moving my DILAM away!

P.S: stop making so much noise, my parents are soundly asleep! xD love you lah choi! (:

2006-04-01T22:34:00.000+08:00

tuitioned in the morning,then sentosaed.played this ride thing,my kart got stuck as in like jammed i couldnt move it damn malu lahhs its like towards the ending already lor then linsin and all were standing at the side waiting,so malu lahhs then they laughed at me like nobody's business.so annoying.and when i could move already,i moved to fast and banged into agnes hahhas and she started moving.ohh wells,then went to beaufort hotel with julia to take things from my cousin when the others were at harbourfront having lunch. after that headed to meet the rest and homed.

2006-03-26T22:38:00.000+08:00

yesterday,had tuition in the morning and babysitted my niece until sis came home then hurried off to meet huiling at 4.30.towned and headed for suntec,watched the superband thing basically there to see niunai not the superband thing so yeahhs.and it happily started at 8 when its supposed to start at 7 how annoying!we left even before the thing ended hahs,just waite for the part where he danced and we left.he's damn good-looking.arghhs,we caught a closer look at him before leaving by the spiral staircase,haha,we walked up and down thrice lahhs.ohh wells,its okie.then parents came to fetch,and homed.

happy birthday second uncle!went over to grandma's place in the morning and buffet came not long after,then after lunch we cut with cake,it was damn crowded over there lahhs like gathering like that.hahs.the cake has mahjong tiles on it.hahs.and its like "shi san yao",i dont know wad's that but yeahhs.and the mahjong tiles damn cute lahhs!still got dice ehhs.hahhas.dad's car broke down today,cos the batt was low,so the repairman came and changed the batt.hahas.i was still disturbed by the fact that i have to go to school myself tmr,not until my mum told me the car's fine.hahahas.how silly can i get.

2006-03-23T22:41:00.000+08:00

my english project is damn screwed up okie.with a member with no printer ink,one in not a good state,one without internet,practically chiang and i were doing the things lahhs.wth right.irritating.

today,went to sauyan's hse to do bio website thingy.had lunch at compass with lynn and angelia while sauyan has her chinese remedial.talked and crapped alot at compass while eating.hahahs.after lunch headed back to school and sauyan's mum fetched us to her hse.i went up the car and told her mum "hi auntie,i miss you,you miss me?!"hahhas damn wth right.ohh wells.then did bio website.danced a little ballet at sau's hse hahs and played alot too.so funny pls.yeahhs today's quite a fun-filled day.

2006-03-19T17:38:00.000+08:00

had chilli crab yesterday!yumyum.

woke up today at 8 today to call and book for the doctor,but no one answered.so went back to sleeep,then was further awakened by my cousin's morning call.hahs.so helped her with something and went back to bed again and then finally woke up at 0945.hehs.watched tv and went out for breakfast cum lunch at 11 plus 12.then queenswayed and thomsonplazaed and homed=))just woke up from my afternoon nap that was from 3 to 5.30 hehs.guess i wont be able to get to sleep tonight then.waiting for dinner!rarrhhh

2006-03-16T23:35:00.000+08:00

today is seaweed day!woke up at 9 plus 10 by chiang's msg and slacked till 10.50 then headed for chiang's hse to do project.gosh and to think that i was ON TIME!hhahas like i always am.hahhas and then we called shirley and hema and they were happily still at home lahhs how annoying.but nvm.hahhas.its okie.then chiang and i stopped by the mama shop to get clay and stuffs and headed back to her home.we ate alot of seaweed!!gosh,three big packets.msg and msg and more msg and im dropping hair like nobody's business lahhs.really turning bald.then walked out with shirley to take bus to meet sis and apparently i was late she demanded a treat but..hahs.too bad.just thought of a status with chiang,seaweed girlfriends!hehs hehs.ohh yes and not forgetting miss lydia hoe!we've been trying to contact her the whole afternoon lahhs!and her phone was happily offed.ohh mann.alright then thats all for my wonderful day.

2006-03-14T21:18:00.000+08:00

havent been blogging.uh huhs.nth much to blog abt too.ohh yeahh,marcella,shamin,lisa,ferlycia,irene won in the pilot pen comp and are qualified to enter the next round!hurrrayyy!hahhas.so proud of them.

and and and im seriously sad okie,yuyang went out like wth.wth.wth.called lisa on the spot she cried!gosh.hahhas and just heard from sau that he told the people not to vote for him.ohh wells.thats quite silly lahhs,i mean like you've already come so far and you decided to quit.nvm.

yeahhs cousin's back from hawaii too=))towned and all.yeapps.kboxed too=))

feeling damn bored.and talking to my 16 yr old son mango is a joy and its also a joy talking to me!hahhas.yesyes.we're bored so started talking crap and being so lame and stupid well,its so unlike me but its so like my 16 yr old son mango.hahhas wad a stupid name too!hahhas.funny.our conversation is ever so interesting and lame,feeling so thick-skinned lahhs.and someone claims that someone is a cute ass hahhas and someone also claims that shes a pretty girl.ahhaas.wth.bye!

2006-03-06T21:41:00.000+08:00

today's trng was alright.wasnt very fun though but played singles with eilis,she said i should train for singles and be like noriko like pls lahhs i can happily faint while in the midst of the game due to the lack of stamina lor.hahhas.and someone bangsehed me again ohh wells im almost used to it already.hahs.

ohhs,and happy belated xiang xiang gong zu day!i love you alot=))
and also happy ahgong,ahma/batman catwoman day!!<33s

i seriously think yuyang's quite good looking.hehs and he learns singing from my sister's music centre,music clinic and she heard him practising "feng" hahhas its was like first hand one lahhs according to her as she heard him sing it even before he did tonight.hahhas.ohh wells.and not forgetting adriano!hahs.

2006-03-04T22:17:00.000+08:00

went towning today.
super tired now.
in the morning,went for tuition and rushed to meet clique
and apparently all of them not there yet except linsin
then we waited for the others
then went ps play arcade
and headed to town after that
crystal jaded
then shopped and played arnd
then trained back to compass and dinnered
then bused home with cherie
and here i am!
hahhas

/the most vulnerable one

2006-02-26T16:13:00.000+08:00

All i have to say, is three simple words to begin and end this post.

I miss you ):

Cheerup please! Catching ups real soon!
Life can take you anywhere
You don't know where it leaves you
But you know you're not alone
Just open your eyes

I heart you (:

-airen(:

2006-02-22T19:32:00.000+08:00

feeling very down now=((
i just hope that all's well
and im seriously bothered by it okie
and thanks to those that tried making me smile and laugh
maybe it really did but it wasnt my genuine smile
very very sad
hopefully things wont turn out the way i wont want it to be
well,time will heal all wounds
we need to talk
went for afternoon session just now,rach and cherie were like laughing so much
but i didnt which only meant something,im not me=((
all i have on my mind is that problem
but i know soon we will overcome it
thinking of it causes my tap to run loose='(
well,i shouldnt let it bother me
and focus and study for common tests
these stuffs will come after that

after afternoon session,compassed with rach and cherie and bused home
had much to talk to cherie abt

2006-02-21T22:12:00.000+08:00

gosh.i almost got knocked down by a car yesterday!omg.
wonder what i was so engrossed in
the car just drove past me 2 to 3cm away!
that was damn scary lahhs.
i was thinking abt i dunno wad and just wanted to jaywalk but just stepped onto the road wanting to cross without looking out for cars.

hahhas.im finally done with studying for geog=))hehs hehs.

2006-02-18T22:19:00.000+08:00

hellos=))went to mona's hse today.hahhas.so funny.bus jouney there was long long long!and worst of all,i got hungry midway=((but its okie cos i slept and i didnt feel the hunger.hahs.studied and sang.hahhas.funfunfun!!

seriously,im worried
hope things will not turn out the way ive expected it to be

last but not least,HAPPY AIREN DAY,eilis!hahahas
thank you for everything
and you read me like a book=))
which is not good cos you will know what im gonna do
hahhas.ohh wells,seriously thanks for being there when i needed you
and please do not "neglect"or bang seh me anymore okie
dont let the disappointment i had in you come back=))
i seriously hate it
and dont ever decieve me cos i never did
and continue trusting me.
hahs.what nonsense am i talking abt?
machiam like some kind of misunderstanding happened between us
hahahas.i <33>

2006-02-17T22:08:00.000+08:00

i passed my maths test!=))10/20.hahhas

ohh wells,at least i passed.
went candy empire with marcella and lisa
cabbed down to marina
lunched at cafe cartel
and headed to millenia walk to candyland!hahhas
then marcella midway cos she had tuition leaving lisa and i
it was rather fun,we were like already late for PTM lahhs
its like 6 and we're still there hahhas
then on our way to the MRT station,saw someone that looked like geraldine see
like wth lahhs.then we turned back to see if it was her but its not
just someone that looks like her,and machiam like her twin from side view
hahs.then lisa and i happily boarded the wrong train!cos the door was closing and we just rushed in,and we headed to raffles place instead wasting more time.was like rushing everywhere we went.
finally,reached school.the talk was damn boring i swear.lisa and i walked out of the place like quite a number of times lahhs,went to the locker and down for some apple chips at the vending machine then saw linsin,huiyan and shantal at the basketball court.and huiyan and linsin were teaching a innocent boy wrong things,bullying.hmpphhs.

well,it was a day packed with activities hahahs.very fun though.

2006-02-16T18:37:00.000+08:00

match against sports school was fun quite contented with marcella and i hahahs.WE ALMOST WON! like wth lahhs.first match 15-11,we won,second set 15-3,they won,third set 15-17!!!arghhhs.and they won but its okie lahhs.then went compass with badmintoners and apparently the sec 2s cried.awww so poor thing.we wanted to console them but ended up crying together with them.but seriously its over dont think abt it,just try harder next year=))auntie bought lisa and i maiyatang.yayys.eating it now.there's no trng tmr like finally,now i can rest fully.so super duper tired lahhs.common tests are round the corner and i hope to get at least B3 for everything.uh huhs. and i know i can=))have confidence!hahhahs.

/dont appear so close to her
it will make me detest her

2006-02-15T21:31:00.000+08:00

/i never really knew you
you were just another friend
but when i got to know you
i let my heart unbend

its seriously obvious enough
but its too obvious
and its really hurting me badly in my heart

hahhas airen taught me chinese today,how funny.had so much laughters please.we laughed like we owned the whole BK.hahhas ohh wells,we dont care!match against sports school tmr,just wanna do my best=))jiayou jiayou!!hehs hehs.

2006-02-14T21:46:00.000+08:00

hellos all and HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!
hehs hehs.it was all sweet and nice for me not until the point when i felt disappointed and thank you,although your present was the last today,it was the sweetest=))and its definitely worth waiting.

meimei:the sock's so cute.
huiyan,for the many presents that you owed me
hahhas it is all given to me,i was rather surprised
but loved it thanks
AIREN:thank you for the wonderful mini bouquet you knew i wanted,so sweet of you
lovely:thanks for the present!its a pleasant surprise
lisa:thanks for reserving the rose for me=))hahahs
julia:didnt expect you to buy that for me.hehs hehs
fishball:it was just a casual remark when i said i wanted the flower,didnt expect you to buy that for me.awww
to the others,thanks for all the gifts!i <33>

/i know just what your saying
so please stop explaining
dont tell me cos it hurts
dont speak
i know what your thinking
i dont need your reasons
dont tell me cause it hurts

thank you,ferly,yuemin,irene and victoria for accompanying me=))<33s!

2006-02-10T21:09:00.000+08:00

it might be a simple few words
but it has caused my heart to bleed
it was obvious enough
and now i know
anyways,i still thank you=))

i was trying to distract you but you kept focus on the topic and remembering where you stopped at and continued after each distraction,and it was all because i knew my heart would bleed even more if i know the truth.but still,yeahhs nvm.

training today was fun!yayyness.felt so energetic and was like running for every shot,despite having abrasions hahhas.hope every training would be the same.hehs hehs.after that hougang malled and trained home.

2006-02-09T20:38:00.000+08:00

yayy!!i love the game marcie and i had with xinmin!felt that we did our best=))which was good and i did enjoy the game.hehs hehs.although we lost,we didnt let them have an easy one.after comp,compassed and homed with cherie,rach,felicia,gillian,and stephanie.uh huhs.had lots of fun laughter and joy.so funny pls.hahhas.saw isabelle at compass too,didnt realise until huiyan asked if it was her,was kinda shocked.yeapps.im very tired now,going to bed soon.shall end off!

/my sky's a little grey

dont lie to me,cos i hate it when im kept in the dark
especially when i know whats going on
and it really saddens me

i was lying and so were you
it really does hurt me alot
especially when your so dear to me
at first,i chose to trust you,but it seems like you took it for granted
you had a choice
but you chose to be sorry to me
now,it seems like i cant trust you anymore
and you just broke your promise
and just didnt know how much it has hurt me

/GO AWAY

2006-02-08T20:08:00.000+08:00

i kinda enjoyed the game with bowen yesterday=))except for the part where stupid jiaolian was saying that we kept laughing,and smiling.well,it was all to calm us down and apparently she criticises us for that.sickening.

draws are out;bdiv vs xinmin,sss and woodlands ring.
horrendous draw!!well,nvm just do our best!=))

/i think otherwise when i replied you
cos letting you know the truth would not make you feel better
however,i do feel the pain in my heart lying to you

i lied when i said it was alright.

2006-02-06T22:25:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 5TH MONTH AH GONG AH MA/BATMAN CATWOMAN!!!!
I LOVE CHIA CHOILING ALOT ALOT!<3
CHOILING ROCKS,BUT HUIYAN ROCKS MORE!!!

choiling say write that she is very nice,
cos she is not angry with me!
ya right!
she everyday will come and beat me!
den scold me idiot!
so she is actually not very nice one la!!!
so everyone,
beware of CHIA CHOILING!!!

-huiyan

2006-02-03T22:10:00.000+08:00

/you've caused much misery

2006-01-31T09:36:00.000+08:00

hmmms,i won another $15 on black jack!hahs.watched cheaper by the dozen2 it was great and i teared as usual.hahs.the ending was touching okie!and catch it!its nice=))

/its only skin deep

2006-01-29T23:06:00.000+08:00

i've got a good-looking neighbour!=))i was attracted to that mesmerizing smile of yours.

played black jack and won $10!!yayyness!

had a weird weird dream and dreamt that i only recognize that only you although i lost my memory.hahs.

2006-01-28T22:11:00.000+08:00

sneezed three times in a row this morning!someone misses me.hahahas.wth.

and phyllis is damn jealous of me!only she and i know why.hehs hehs.

just got my ang bao from my parents,yayness!its already under my pillow=))was quite worried today cos couldnt contact my dad and normally he would call us before us calling him,he went out for hours and we've heard nothing abt him.we were worried sick!my sis and mum went out to look for dad while i stayed home in case he calls,and indeed he did!gosh.sigh of relieve manns.

/some things last forever

2006-01-27T22:30:00.000+08:00

sighhs.its on and off on and off.

/maybe it was a little green that i was feeling
but it proves that i dont have a place
you treat it like i didnt exist
but it shows that your not worth it

just be happy=))

nothing can describe how im feeling now,
im not even sure of it myself
but well,theres one thing im sure of
my love for you remains

you may think its abt you but dont think so highly of yourself cos you are not so influential.so yeahhs.

2006-01-26T22:51:00.000+08:00

tired.felt kind of fit today,had p.e and morning exercise in the morning!ran one whole round almost anrd the 3rd level and was practically running everywhere chasing for that idiot,loohuiyan.i will reign the world!

/just a wave or smile from you melts my heart

;it was just a short qn
how are you?
it was simple yet meaning alot

2006-01-24T20:14:00.000+08:00

kinda enjoyed the match today=))

/leave me alone

/ru guo wo ai shang ni de siao rong
yao zhen me yong bao,yao zhen me yong you
ru guo ni kuai le bu shi wei wo
hui bu hui fang shou qi shi hai shi yong you

/its not you

2006-01-23T20:15:00.000+08:00

competition against christ church tmr.
partnering airen!=))hope all's well tmr,it seems like we were back in sec 1.hehs hehs.
wadever it is,we must JIAYOU!IF YOU THINK YOU CAN YOU CAN!so we can do it!
c'mon,SJC WHOOSH!

i wanna see my eye-candy soon soon soon.<3s!

/you held me tight in your arms
how i wished you'll never let go
for a moment there was security
although it lasted for not more than 5 secs
it was enough
thankyou=))

school reopened
you seemed to have forgotten me
you always had your excuses
well,maybe we're really drifting
it thats the case
i shant hold you back
goodbye goodbye
takecare my friend.

2006-01-21T23:22:00.000+08:00

no-one could give me the happiness you give me
and no one will replace you
but,you will only exist in my memory

i hate you so much okie!you make it seem like im always in the wrong.
HMPHS!!

eyecandy!<33s!

three different emotions in one post.hahs.

/im just not able to let go

/actions speak louder than words

2006-01-20T21:29:00.000+08:00

hmmms,havent been blogging so here i am now!
firstly,HAPPY BELATED AIREN DAY!!<33s!
secondly,i have a complaint,stupid eilis bang seh me for someone else not so important esp when it was on OUR DAY!ohh wells,nvm then.i shall not be a petty pig!!hmmms,I HATE DOUBLE CROOK!shes so sickening okie.

okie,i had my first match against st.nic's.we lost eventually although there was a tough fight.lynette sprained her ankle!like for the second time and it was during the match!ohh wells,i dun blame her,but i was rather disappointed.nvm its over.hope lynette recovers soon!takecare!

i thought i made it,
however,airen said something yesterday that made me realise,
i have been decieving myself all this while,
well,i have to thank her
or not i wouldnt be clear of it

it was a tough search.

/kiss me goodbye

2006-01-14T23:10:00.000+08:00

had tuition today!the other guy came for tuition today,uh huhs.anyways thats not the main point.IVE GOT A NEW EYE CANDY!!hes damn good looking lahhs okie!he look like the campas superstar kenneth but obviously better looking and that doesnt imply that i like kenneth okie!!yuck yuck yuck!!okie hope to see him again!!

2006-01-14T18:50:00.000+08:00

back from camp!it was terrible alrights.didnt like it was practically slacking there.and sleeping time was horrendous too,the tent was damn smelly!but who cares!at least we get to sleep.shared tent with agnes,anne-marie and amalah.hehs hehs.guess thats all abt camp!not much memories of it.

/maybe a better choice is you?
i hope so
maybe you would make a difference

/i just cant resist the temptation
i saw your face in a crowded place
and i dont know wad to do
your smiles just melt my heart
it was more than anything
each word you say
everything you do
was under my observation
and will always be from now on
so goodbye to the past
your appearance was enough
you made my life beautiful again=))

/please do think before doing or saying anything
cos everything you say or do will have a great impact on me
and you,
have made me very disappointed in you
and you,have added to my wound and it shall never be healed

gosh im like contradicting myself,nvm.bye!

2006-01-10T11:18:00.000+08:00

i somehow enjoyed yesterday!=))

/somehow it might be back
its the one i hate most
it was hard to forget
and sad to say its back
i wonder why it keeps haunting me
but maybe its part of my life
something i cannot forget
but wad i can i do?
it comes and go like the wind
but i can just bear in mind
just let go,dont hold back.

2006-01-07T22:08:00.000+08:00

tuitioned in the morning,lunched with julia.was supposed to meet clique at 12 but,was late cos tuition ended at 12!hmmms,we were caught in the rain,i homed and julia followed me.apparently we went to the wrong bus stop to take bus lahhs!sickening.but nvm.took a straight bus from my hse,43 to parkway.met eli,agnes,cherie,linsin,huiyan,ching,felicia and gillian.uh huhs.went to rusty and i bought a bag!yayness!I WANT THAT RUSTY HANDBAG TOOS!sighhs.its okie.then towned.saw many people.then trained back.

/that pair of smiling eyes
was seen from a distance
that smile that remains in my mind

2006-01-06T22:39:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BELATED XIANG XIANG GONG ZU DAY!
&
HAPPY AHGONG,AHMA/BATMAN,CATWOMAN DAY!

<33s!!

2006-01-04T22:12:00.000+08:00

had trng on the first day of school!=))yesterday.hmmms,it wasnt an enjoyable one=((.for some reason,meimei was annoyed and pek chek.sighhs.and all of us were kind of tired and were hardly put our heart into trng.All's well during the first 2 days of school.but still lack of sleep every morning.have been having talks,and stuffs almost spending our whole day in the hall,having more and more leg cramps!so annoying!!its all so stuffy and hot like me!okie wth.

borrowed books today.like wow!hahhas did i type wrongly?!choiling has borrowed books!!hehs hehs.went home earlier than usual today and had the longest nap ever!but yawns,im still tired.and the pain from my chicken eye is killing me!!

/you show that your happy
and not keep saying it
without showing it

2005-12-31T21:12:00.000+08:00

stayed at marc's hse.mahjonged with marc,eilis,jane through the night while the others were in lala land upstairs.some were watching dvds throughtout the night too!hmmms,fun but tired.wanted to go kbox today but in the end dint.so we headed home.slept for 4 hrs.cant make up my mind whether to go for countdown or not.sighhs.ohh wells.

/sometimes i wonder
if you take me as your competitor
as one to compare things with
but,maybe im reading too much into it
and being too sensitive
but this has been my observation

/unclear feelings

2005-12-29T00:49:00.000+08:00

had friendlies today with ijtp,was okie.uh huhs.nth much happening so yeahhs,only badm badm badm.sch's reopening!!gosh thats so fast.after friendlies,lunched.hehs hehs and had dessert we had so much joy and laughters!!it was kinda weird cos the couple sitting next to us were kind of quarrelling.hahhas.ohh wells.one left after another and soon it was only left with airen and me.we talked at laodifang.well,just dun think so much okie airen!!"IF YOU THINK YOU CAN YOU CAN!!"you must never lose heart,hope and confidence and most importantly,your fighting spirit.i may not really understand how your feeling now but at least i have experienced it before and it was rather worst than yours and i broke down many times toos.so let it all out if need be dun bottle it all up.it will be a distraction for you.so yeahhs.JIAYOU!!and and do not decieve yourself,its hurting you in the end.prove her wrong,prove to her that you can do it okie!

/i shouldnt be living in the past
and escaping from reality
memories are wad i have now

a new year is starting
we should all forget our unhappiness
and be happy in the upcoming year!!=))

2005-12-26T00:58:00.000+08:00

24th

went to the groceries store to get stuffs for our christmas dinner at night with family.
uh huhs waited long for a cab!!gosh.legs and arms were aching so much,slept on the cab and we reached home and we had the warmest xmas dinner!=))and my sister gave me a necklace,which i liked alot alot!!

25th

attended xmas party at cousin's hse,exchanged presents and stuffs.and well,i wasnt granted my wish,i guess ive really been a naughty girl!!nvm its okie.

/your my best present
you make the difference

2005-12-23T23:54:00.000+08:00

finally watched KINGKONG!!hehs hehs.it wasnt really funny,but we laughed at every slightest thing.and apparently,there was this part where the beauty had a close encounter with a dinosaur unknowingly while trying to hide from the other dinosaur chasing after her,uh huhs then just when the beauty realised that dinosaur next to her,we heard "HELLO!HOW ARE YOU?!"hahahas.well,it was the father making the sound effects behind us that caused us to laugh real hard!it was really kinda funny as we were all feeling damn anxious and worried then someone said that behind you just imagine the scene.ohh wells,im not sure what im explaining but i sure had a great time laughing!hehs hehs.like i always do.=))

muscles are aching badly from thurs's trng,did "wa tiao" (frog jump)uh huhs.thats abt it and and i love my partner lynette so much for being able to tolerate my temper most of the time,and for encouraging me and stuffs.

im worried i might not be able to be granted my wish,
ive been a very naughty naughty girl this year!
<33s>

2005-12-17T22:49:00.000+08:00

well,i've tried my best
you were forgotten
however,there were times
that i still remember,
certain places brought back memories
that could never be erased

/i guess the memories over the many months
could not be forgotten just within a few days
but still,na de qi,fang de xia!

im sorry,thankyou=))

2005-12-16T18:43:00.000+08:00

finally the week's over!end of badm EVERYDAY.tiring.now i have a little more time to enjoy my last few weeks of holidays.the hols past really fast.hmmms yeahhs guessed thats abt it can hardly move my limbs!!

2005-12-15T23:11:00.000+08:00

AIREN here :D

Sorry that i kept this longg post waiting.
haha. Not really in the mood to blog meaningful stuffs.
haha but today suddenly felt like.
You just asked me if i'm ok.
Yupp, i'm fine.

Badminton-ed the whole week.
Am kinda tired. Muscle aching all over.
Friendlies and all made me realise.
I'm starting to fear, of alot of things.
Northzone is nearing.
No idea who will be playing,
but I am afraid indeed.

Nvm, shalln't mention it here.
Or it'll seemed like my blog.
hahaha.

You said i looked seriously lost just now.
Maybe cos, i am lost.
Alot of things, alot of people,
I'm facing with different kind of emotions.

Life is getting more and more
difficult by day.
And more and more
saddened by night.

You say,
you're beginning not to understand me alr.
You're not to blame.
I dare say no one do understand me.
Including myself.
That's how unpredictable a person can be ain't it?

I'm glad for you,
i really am.
The carefree, no worries
and happy go lucky life is here for you.

I know you've been through alot.
Alot of struggles inside of you,
did you realise that life is all about being happy.
Maybe its just me,
I've realised the importance of being happy.

I know of a saying,
"Even if the heart breaks,
it will still continue beating.
Life goes on."
Familiar? hahaha.
but don't you agree.

Just remember,
Life, is beautiful.

It depends on how you want to look at it.
Sad or happy, you still have to go on with life.
So why not choose to Smile?
Facing each problem with a heavy heart,
brings the problem even down than it is.
So instead, brace up your smile
And face the world with a cheery face.

You can't change the way others look at you.
but you can change the way you look at others.

For example
If you tell yourself,
Yes i hate her.
Then of cos, you will hate her.
So why not Love instead of Hate?

Emotions is something we can control.
and our heart is something we can't deceive.
I'm glad you've thought alot of things throu,
finally realising that its time for somethings to be over.
I hope, you're not deceiving your heart.
Only you yourself will know.
but since you've made up ur mind,
stick to it.
Don't let other things affect the way you feel.

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
No one's perfect remember?
Not me, not you, not anyone else.
Allow yourself to make some mistakes at time.
Be it badminton or your daily life.
because, mistakes allow you to improve and you know what?
upgrade! hahaha.
To think back, i feel so stupid saying upgrade to Jacq.
but, its true!
Upgrade yourselves like how the govt upgrade HDBs! :D

There are many many things that i regret.
And i believe you do too.
but i know, i can't turn back time and go back to the beginning
and change the way i did things.
I don't have a travel-back-to-the-past machine.
hmm, one more thing to add to my Christmas wishlist! :D
Thats why,
I moved on.

But i do look back, often thinking of the things i've done, or others did that made me think, i really want a travel-back-to-the-past machine.
but i know, its impossible.

Somethings are just not meant to be.
This, we all must know.

However, i'm still stuck between myself.
Between a choice i want to make, or between a choice i should make.
haha i doubt you understand.
Alright, i'm sprouting nonsense.
i'm a beansprout, watch me sprout! :D

Just be happy(:

I've more to say, but i have to go.
Sis want to use the comp.
Ending with smth to say to
CCL :D

Airen,
thankyou.
Thankyou for caring for me.
Thankyou for always being there when you can.
Thankyou for trying to understand me.
Thankyou for whatever you have done.
Thankyou for sharing your joys and laughters with me.
Thankyou for making me realise,
I'm not alone (:

I LOVE YOU MORE THAN LIFE ITSELF ((((:

Alright, i'm off.

<3,
airen.

2005-12-14T23:45:00.000+08:00

hellos!
im super exhausted
hmmms,hardly has time for other stuffs but just badm badm and badm
played against cedar girls' today it wasnt that bad though,but unfortunately my friend wasnt there,it has been a long time sine i saw her and like finally i went to her sch and she went for some mission thing sighhs.disappointed!
have been seeing badmintoners everyday,bringing all kinds of joy and laughter each day!!
really fun but its time for me to do my xmas shopping!and i havent watched chicken little!wth
well,guess i'll just end here then i better rest and lovely was rushing me to rest so off i go now!!

your my best present
my one and only
the one giving me the sweetest smile
that smile that never fades

this is all i ask for
is it alot?
i hope its not

2005-12-11T09:37:00.000+08:00

just came back from badm chalet.
two words,tired and fun!
hehs hehs.

jiaolian called me "pang mei"!!so annoying i know im fat but it makes me chubbier and cuter!hehs.

AIREN stayed over at my hse on tuesday and apparently she din let me sleep!!well,we had lots of fun too!pillow fights and stuffs.she was rude she ignored me when i talked to her okie!machiam like i was talking to the wall!guess thats abt it!

im a coward
and a failure
im not willing to face it
well,seriously
i believe that time will heal all wounds
and i hope it really do

2005-12-05T22:24:00.000+08:00

woke up and went for hair cut with eilis.uh huhs and we really do have very little hair now!!hehs hehs.was supposed to play mahjong at my hse but something but yeahhs so in the end went to the airport with marcella,eilis,sinyee,maybelle,linsin and huiyan.while the others went to burger king,eilis marcella and i saw sakae sushi so we decided to have a few plates of sushi.but a few plates became 10 plates in total and apparently we only paid $12.24 in the end cos the first round of plates were cleared and apparently the waiter only counted the four plates we had on the table that time.we realised but decided to hurry ciao.so we paid and left.wad a cheap meal i had!!

uh huh so after fetching kim and lainey at the airport,we left for compass.and i homed.

/maybe ive been decieving myself from the truth
and not willing to face reality
maybe im faking it all
but i just hope that you would be happy
and time will heal all wounds

it guess its all the past
the fact is i was unwilling to part
i just left quietly so i wont get hurt
i had to use my laughter to cover it all
ohh wells,dont worry
wo xuan zhe fang qi ni,shi ying wei wo tai ai ni

2005-12-03T23:27:00.000+08:00

today was fun fun fun!!hehs.i woke up and was really bored so decided to msg AIREN to see where she was going hehs.but she like took ten years to reply me lahhs!just when i was enjoying my show she replied uh huhs.and then we decided to act tourist today so we went to choco world aka little india and chinatown.

we were supposed to meet like at 0130but apparently stupid AIREN reached like 15 minutes later.nvm im already used to waiting for her!uh huhs got off the train at boon keng and waited for her GRAND ARRIVAL and she still happily shook her butt and walked towards me slowly so annoying!!and then we carried out our plan and headed for little india hehs hehs.we were lost!!like for the first time we actually got lost somewhere in singapore!!so we asked arnd for directions and headed for MUSTAFA!this is the first time i stepped into mustafa mann!cos each time mum suggest going there i would object uh huhs.I HAVE TO SAY MUSTAFA IS BIG BIG BIG!!so many steps!i bought alot of zapalang!!then we walked arnd the shops along the road of little india had lots of fun crapping here and there.met two chi co peks!one talked to us when the other kept on looking at us so sickening but i know they just cant resist our beauty!hehs hehs jkjk!then we bought other stuffs toos!

then we headed for chinatown.we got lost in the mrt station too so many exits!!so we tried our luck and got out from one exit and it turned out that we had to walk a long distance to our destination!!we had a wonderful meal and i ended it with a loud burp.we walked anrd and arnd and arnd.and AIREN apparently mistook somewhere with somewhere and then she blamed me for that!how unreasonable!hmphhs!we walked alot and got really tired and whiny so we went into mrt place there to talk.and i went into the train station although i did not have to take mrt just to pei AIREN!please feel honoured and how nice can i get mann!!so mummy came to pick me up i went for my uncle's dinner and eilis trained home.

we took so many pictures lahhs!its like flooding my cam!hehs.had a fun filled day indeed!

more outings pls!i love AIREN!

2005-12-02T23:55:00.000+08:00

hellos all!im looking forward to trng each time!!my dec schedule is PACKED PACKED PACKED!!gosh i hardly have time for other things mann!!hmmms and ive been thinking lahhs.maybe im reading too much into it,ohh wells i'll just let nature take its course!and i guess i decided to give up bcos i love you so.uh huhs.and our dear alison is leaving us!!hmmms wish you all the best alrights?we will miss you every hour,every minute and every second.we have gone through thick and thin together.your crap and everything will never be forgotten.i will miss your encouragement and everything!nevertheless,we will continue to train hard and do you proud!!

there are many things i wont forget
the happiness we've had
but has all became memories
it will be stored at the back of my mind
the awaitment was torturous
but there were more happy moments
there are many if onlys
if only i had a choice
if only i could turn back time
but i know i cant
once its lost it,its gone forever

2005-12-02T23:38:00.000+08:00

I LOVE AIREN!
long post another day! :D

hello bridget! hahahahaha.
you'll know what i mean.
glad that i hurry help you change right? heh.
thanks for telling me you always read my long entries!
and not the others!
meaningful right?
yesyes i'm honoured! (:

I've got plenty to say,
but guess i should stop.
Cos you're hurrying me!
haha you wanna blog your own stuffs.
hahaha.

JUST BE HAPPY! (:

<3

2005-12-02T22:04:00.000+08:00

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